To: Janet
From: Paul
RE: I cannot fuck with you
Date: 11 August 2008
The one person that can beat me down is you. The one person who can get away with it is you. I can live with that because I have a soft spot in my heart for you and it feels good to love someone.
To; Others
As I prepare to meet the public eye it came to me that the public eye can be a bitch. There was a time I could say anything as I felt a need to vent; now it is like the shit haunts me. Things I said a month ago seems like yesterday, while the things I say today are ignored if they do not fit the writer’s script.
I mean what do they know about me; I can post the truth and they have me so deep under that you will not know the truth when you see it.
I realize I have to change my style; I have a tendency to tell creepy jokes, meaning I say shit that if you do not know me you would swear up and down I am about to commit murder or something. But I have a military history, which is actually somewhat present, but that is ill-relevant, but the point is that men of discipline tend to vent as a way to control their behavior.
I am not saying I will not fuck something up, but I will not talk about it first, see there I go again a fucking dark joke. Like they say old habits are hard to break but they can be broken. People that know me know I talk shit, in fact when I am serious about something I use very little profanity. People who know me know when I mean what I say and when I am just trying to make a point.
In all honesty I am not the bad guy, but I prefer to be known as a bad person, than be known as a good person bad things happen to. I want to be kind, but not have that mistaken for weakness, so sometimes I put on front, for the good of my adversary. Because even if I am a good guy, I have friends not so forgiven and that is not a joke. Seriously it is not! The moral to this letter is one should not pick on me, because you can, but payback’s a mother!
Frank Paul Gambino

