An Explanation deserved an Apology not

An Explanation deserved an Apology not

 

They say I am bipolar and have mood swings, what do you think?  But they say a lot of things about me.  Will I ever surrender my life for a bunch of confused fool’s hell no, but I will die fighting.  Do I feel like normal people I doubt it?   I think I have been desensitized years ago.  Am I on an ego trip, probably yes and do not like people stepping on it.  Am I arrogant I have to be to put up with all the bullshit?  Therefore you cannot expect me to continue to suffer in silence.

 

You cannot tell me the devil is more important than God, because Satan ran things for the last few years.  His time is up.  A man tells you he is someone; you never met before but read about and heard about.  How are you going to tell him that person died for you because someone wrote a book that said so?  Then get an attitude when he says well if you want to kill me once I will kill you 6 billion times meaning end this damn world.

 

How are you going to get an attitude for having an attitude?  When you say someone died for you it is a threat against that man’s life and that man has a right to self defense.  What you wish on this man you may while is wishing upon yourself

 

Then there is forgivingness.  You put a man through living hell and he has to overcome your bullshit only to help you?  Now who is ego tripping and now who is arrogant?  Do you think you are worth the heartache and pain?  You think this shit is about Janet but it is all about you all.  I care as much as you do!

 

Paul

I do not Understand the Big Picture Anymore

I do not Understand the Big Picture Anymore

I do not understand the big picture anymore, because they are all based on lies.  You have me on the bottom of the pits, but that is not good enough, you forced me to watch not for a day or two but for a lifetime the woman the one person who was allegedly set aside for me run around with man after man and yes I am talking about Janet.  And it never ended, it continues until this day.  You tried to set me up for a murder to lock me up as a crazy deranged stalker.  You know this is true.  What did I ask for in life other than a wife and family and money which there is plenty of.  But your evil ass just wants me to want things you keep out of reach in hopes that I will go astray and commit a desperate act as grounds to lock me up.  You can go to hell!

I am sick to my stomach of you all, and I really have it in me to take off and make a disappearing act.  Since I am already an enemy of the state maybe I should contact terrorist not to be one with them but to use their money to remove me from the equation and let you’ll battle it heads up Satan against Satan a divided kingdom.  They and I are not in oneness.  You had mistaken me for someone else.  I planned to work on my new screenplay over the weekend, but you made me too sick in the stomach to do anything constructive, it hurts to know all the time my enemy is the state.  And Janet was nothing but a piece on the board to harm me.

^{Lk 11:17} Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them: “Any kingdom divided against itself will be ruined, and a house divided against itself will fall. 

^{Lk 11:18} If Satan is divided against himself, how can his kingdom stand? I say this because you claim that I drive out demons by Beelzebub. 

^{Lk 11:19} Now if I drive out demons by Beelzebub, by whom do your followers drive them out? So then, they will be your judges. 

^{Lk 11:20} But if I drive out demons by the finger of God, then the kingdom of God has come to you.

^{Lk 11:21} “When a strong man, fully armed, guards his own house, his possessions are safe. 

^{Lk 11:22} But when someone stronger attacks and overpowers him, he takes away the armor in which the man trusted and divides up the spoils.

^{Lk 11:23} “He who is not with me is against me, and he who does not gather with me, scatters.

The Message of the day:

You may not be able to see the point in what you are being asked to do but do it anyway and do it well. Towards the end of the week you will see the big picture again and will understand what it was all about. There could be money in it for you too.

 

Fall of America & Ignition of New York City

Fall of America & Ignition of New York City

 

This is not a threat, a promised, or my wish but a matter of fact if we continue in this direction.  Sure as when I leave NYC it will be nuked, as sure as when I leave America it will go bankrupt and be pledged with diseases, and as I said as sure as we continue down this direction I will leave America.  Why stay somewhere I am unwanted and hated, by people who only want to control me?

 

If I could leave America I would go and if I could relocate out of New York City I would relocate.  In a country where Satan is more important than God, such a place is not worth preserving.  This is not a threat, promise or wish but a matter of factual or maybe a bad prediction.  Time will tell!  “A man who has nothing or no one has nothing to lose and a man pays rent because he has nothing.”  So what am I here for?  “You can kill me once, but I can kill you over 6 billion times.”

 

Paul

The Drug Dealer & the Dog

The Drug Dealer & the Dog

 

Why do you think drug dealers have dogs?  They have them because they use them for protection.  The secret about a dog is he is expendable.  See a drug dealer uses his dog as a decoy you go after him and he sends his dog after you and while you fight off his dog he shoots you with his real weapons of war.

 

Why did I mention this, it is the same thing with a low life two faced person, you think Janet is dating say Jermaine Dupri, but all the time she is in bed with the government in the name of Satan.  So you go after her and you get preoccupied with JD the dog that is expendable.  While you are fighting the dog the Dealer being Satan shoots you down with all of his horses and all of his bitches.

 

You never get to her, because you have to fight off an attack dog which you do kill, but he is just an animal a fucking undomesticated pet.  You never see your real enemy because of the illusion called love.  Put it is not about love anymore it is about power.  Mankind knows not love; his motivational tools are power and fear.  He wants to control that which he has not authority over.

 

Then they arrest you as a crazy man as a stalker, with an obsession and uses the Gay Mob media to make the lie valid.  Childish Games!  They leave me no choice but to leave, they turned my own family against me for a dollar bill.

 

^{Ge 19:24} Then the LORD rained down burning sulfur on Sodom and Gomorrah—from the LORD out of the heavens. 

^{Ge 19:25} Thus he overthrew those cities and the entire plain, including all those living in the cities—and also the vegetation in the land. 

^{Ge 19:26} But Lot’s wife looked back, and she became a pillar of salt.

^{Ge 19:27} Early the next morning Abraham got up and returned to the place where he had stood before the LORD. 

^{Ge 19:28} He looked down toward Sodom and Gomorrah, toward all the land of the plain, and he saw dense smoke rising from the land, like smoke from a furnace.

^{Ge 19:29} So when God destroyed the cities of the plain, he remembered Abraham, and he brought Lot out of the catastrophe that overthrew the cities where Lot had lived.   

Exile from the Great Stalker

Exile from the Great Stalker

 

When you said (they) being plural are more important than I, you told me that they teamed up against me and confirmed it is me against the establishment, which I call the status quo whom may well be the Illuminati or the New World Order.  They did fine for themselves before me and can continue to do well in my absence.  The woman I loved (Past tense) turned out to be a two faced G girl (government agent) engaged in a conspiracy to harm me.  The people (black people) I devoted my life to wants me dead, the people I worked for (the government) wants me to stay down in the lower echelon in life.  It is a mess and I have nowhere to go here and refuse to die for people I have grown to hate and such an act could never be out of love but insanity, which contrary to common belief I am not

 

South Africa requested I go there years ago, I wonder if the offer is still open.  Then Canada is open to people who come in the conditions of exile, then there is Cuba.  Israel is out of the question, I know that is what you want but it will never happen.  Is America the great stalker for when you have no use for someone or want them you do not want anyone else to have them?  You do not want me or want to do right by me so help find me a home away from your direct influence.  And since I am not him (the Son), you will not fall from the grace of God will you?  I mean they are more important than I, so you will find your grace in them (Satan) correct?

 

At the rate we are headed towards total dissolution of association, I am going to pull a disappearing act on you all one day.  I will go there and there and there until I totally disappear.  Because I do not want to be anywhere I am unwanted or go anywhere I am not invited.  This is not a joke or a threat but a promise, I think I can hurt you more by leaving you than killing you, because the demise you will bring upon yourself in my absence and you and I know it.  There is a secret we share about me, that need not be mentioned.  Am I your nuclear umbrella?  Star Wars!  The world may well soon find out!

How about the Government & I go separate ways?

How about the Government & I go separate ways?

The truth of the matter is they do not need me at all, I do not need this; let me go to a country of my choice.  I do not want to be on the good side of the United States Government, because if I am on their good side now I hate to be on their bad side.  Since they need me less that I need them, and I do not need them we are in mutual agreement.  What I have in America is not good enough for me and I am ready to leave.  It is mutual you need me less than I need you and I do want anything else to do with you all.  Let me find out if there is a country willing to purchase my services, since you are obviously not interested.  I know Janet belongs to you and always did, I accept that also.  Why are you hiding these articles to protect me?

It is the Secret Service

A Mental Stream

Tell me what the difference between being held up is and held back, in both cases you are stagnant.  Look I know it is the secret service and probably other Federal Institutions that made my life a living hell for the last 33 years.  I have nothing but a pacifier, which is really nothing at all, all you can do is put me in prison, in a homeless shelter or let me leave to another country and I am willing to take that gamble.

You’ll are corrupt and evil and mean me no good, you are not my friends, in fact you see me as an enemy of the state.  Let us start to discuss my departure, I have nothing here or anything to look forward to and this is now clear to me, you plan to string me along until you dispose of me.  A slow death or a fast death is still death.  I can handle dying but I will not go willingly.  So now it comes down to either you kill me or take off the shackles.  The hell with let my people go let me go to another country, find me a wife and live my remaining years in peace.  The truth is we are not meant to be it is that simple.  If I am so insignificant you should have no problem with me leaving.

With power planet Pluto turning retrograde on your birthday you need to be even more aware than usual of how you relate to various authority figures. Remember: you need them more than they need you, so do what it takes to stay on their good side.

Limitations planet Saturn is opposed by Mars in your sign this weekend, which means you will fight tooth and nail to overcome the restrictions that life has placed on you. Be careful. Not all those restrictions are holding you back – some are holding you up.

 

It is the Secret Service

It is the Secret Service

 

You confirmed your identity.  My problems come from the institution of the White House.  I should have known when my pension was never processed.  You’re the only institution powerful enough to hold me down this long.  It is not Obama, or Bush or Clinton it is the institution.  Does that make me an enemy of the state?  Am I too valuable to allow me to leave the country?  Am I too dangerous to let me live and if so where does this end?

 

Was I supposed to die for Janet?  Am I supposed to allow fools to kill me in an act of love for mankind?  This is basically the same thing as committing suicide.  I know I am on point because you hid this article.  People need to known the truth and read it.

 

The Mental Stream

 

So now I know who you are and it has always been you.  A Jermaine Dupri could never meet my challenge; it took all the Kings Horses and all the Kings men and all you can do is this?  So how about I agree with your bullshit and say there is no cure to AIDS or a solution to the economic crisis and the Middle East.  Suppose I say I quit and the hell with you all?  If I believe it will it happen?  A nuclear holocaust and world pledged with diseases, is that what it will come down to?

 

Check Mate!

My Hands are full & General News

My Hands are full & General News

 

To: President Elect Barak Obama & President George Bush

From: Frank Paul Gambino

Date 19 January 2009

 

Because you were born on the cusp of intellectual Aquarius and emotional Pisces your outlook tends to change from day to day. But that will be strength over the coming 12 months. Being able to see both ways you will more easily see solutions.

 

Steer clear of situations where you end up doing things for people that they really ought to be doing for themselves. As the Sun moves into the most sensitive area of your chart today others will see you as an easy touch – and they’re right, you are.

Janet:

Janet is back out and getting around, I am on another computer.  I need to get my photo off of the old one and install them into this one.  Janet has some critical fans, all they could talk about is her weight, which I think is fine, I weigh 210 LBS, during the summer about 195 LBS, so like Vista the new operating system finds compatibility in more weight.

Studio:

Man I am tied up on my project, I have to install applications to support my programs; I will be using Cubase Studio 4, Acid Pro 7 and Reason 4 and maybe Sonar 7.  I have to troubleshoot because now I am getting signals in Reason 4.0.1 but no sound and I have no audio driver to support Sonar 7, a damn headache.  I had to get a new MIDI controller keyboard. It is smaller and an upgrade for what I do so I cannot complain, but I might have to get a new audio interface.  I found one that is inexpensive serves my purpose and is Vista compatible, I have to start getting paid for this stuff I do on the studio.  I will search for the driver to the MI4 audio interface but I need a new one it was made in 2005 and the ASIO drivers are old.  Maybe the update is new driver.  I think it would be wise to get that audio interface.

I have to download the manual to the keyboard M-Audio is so damn cheap, they make you print your own manual.  I got the Axiom 25 nice and small and will serve the purpose. I will give them Acid Pro 6, and Edirol PCR-M80 keyboard controller and a MI4 audio interface and keyboard stand and might give them a dual monitor video card I removed from my old studio computer and a couple of VSTi.

Sister’s Computer:

I will be busy for the next two weeks at least.  There is not much I can do for anyone at the time.  My system needs to fix her computer, my hands are full. All she needs is an operating system 4 GB of RAM 1 GBX4, she has the new hard drive, if she fix it and they will have a DAW studio.

Letters:

Let me get off I have to write my uncle Billy and my nephew wants me to write a letter in I his behalf, he is incarcerated and wants to get paroled out, he will need a job.  If my sister fixes the computer he will have studio waiting for him.  Like you said I cannot do it all other people have to show interest as well.

President Obama:

This is a times and not just a day to live for.  I hear old people talking about after I see him become President I am ready to die, but like Rev Sharpton said we have an All Star time but that does not mean they will score and win, we have to keep the pressure on we cannot be passive only to become aggressive when we become disgruntled.  When he become president he gets in the hot seat and the good old buddy stuff ends and satisfactions of expectation begin.  I wish him the best but he will age twice as fast now, that is a hard job.

 

Busy on a Mission

Busy on a Mission

 

To: President Elect Barak Obama & President George W. Bush

From: Frank Paul Gambino

Date: 18 January 2009

 

There is no point in feeling guilty about things that happened in the past. You cannot go back and change them so why waste time lamenting what was, what wasn’t and what might have been? Every day is a new day. Live it to the full and without regrets.

 

Keep things simple if you want to be happy. There will be times this week when you worry that you are not doing enough, but in fact you are probably doing too much and need to slow down. Give your mind, your body and your emotions a much-needed rest.

To h be honest I stayed up 31 hours from Friday to Saturday messing with computers.  I got my new computer up and running but I have to uninstall programs in my 2005 computer the old studio computer in order to install certain programs in the new computer.  I might need technical support for compatibility issues, we will find out.

 

I am actually running two computers simultaneously but I plan to setup whereby I can only run one at a time to have dual monitors on both, meaning sharing the same monitors..  This project will take about a week, because getting new activation codes for VSTi and VST will be work.  Steinberg is a trip, upgrading Cubase and getting an activation code is a headache, so I decided to uninstall first, to not be registered on another computer.  I was going to play is safe and install first, but it conflicts with installation due to registration.

 

I can let go of the past if the future is different, I just do not want to dance to the same old dance to the same old song unless it is Michael Jackson’s Thriller and Janet Jackson’s Rhythm Nation 1814 or something.  What has been happening lately is not about nothing.  Let me get back to s work.

Taking the Lead & Expressing Feelings

Taking the Lead & Expressing Feelings

 

To: President Elect Barak Obama & Pres. Bush

From: Frank Paul Gambino

Date: 16 January 2009

 

You may have to lay down the law if you are going to get a joint project off the ground, but if you don’t do it then who will? People expect you to take the lead, so act as if you are the boss even though it may not be official.

It’s okay to keep your feelings to yourself but if you don’t let a certain person know, either today or over the weekend that you care about them you may not get another opportunity for several weeks. Go on, be brave. They feel the same way about you.

Time is not on my side this morning and I want to mention a few things as quick as possible.  First of all, if you love someone you should tell them to reinforce their confidence in you, however there should be some reciprocation.  I am certain that Janet (Jackson) knows how I feel about her and I do not have to post it on the Internet, but sometimes I honestly wonder about how she feels about me.  I do not do her like she does me; I may act out of anger sometimes but if I do she provokes it.  I think this is personal and will leave it like that.

We have a new administration and a new agenda hopefully it will be realized.  I just got a letter from the Veterans Administration stating they apologized about the oversight by not processing my claim.  How I can be failed of notice in Washington DC beats me, but hopefully President Obama will make this one of his first acts or President Bush one of his last.  Paying me my pension we can call it putting me on the payroll, even though I deserve it as a human being for what happened to me in the military and what I was put through by the government.  But we can let the past be the past and look forward.

So give me a fair percentage with retroactive pay and call it putting me on the payroll and my taking the lead will be somewhat official.  You will be amazed of my dedication when being compensated for my work.  I will take 70% or 80% but I deserve a salary for now of 100% with retroactive pay to put me well into the green.

Basically I made my vision known, but maybe I can do a better job breaking it down at a more Micro point of view, but I do not feel it should be my responsibility to micromanage.  That is what we have elected officials for to handle the instructional aspects of day to day activities and to oversee them.  I feel I should be allowed to be vague and left for their interpretation, because this is a democracy. 

Be Aware: I am in a transitional process.  I am in to process of setting up a new home studio computer, which means un-installations and reinstallation into another computer and updates of drivers to make my hardware and software Vista compatible.  Then there is my internet computer, my studio computer will become my internet computer and my new computer will be my studio computer. I have to take certain programs out of the old computer and install them into the new internet computer.  So my first job will be to uninstall certain programs out of the old internet computer and disassemble it and connect the new computer into its place.  Then update my dangle keys to run Vista, then uninstall music programs from my studio to install into the new studio and once I have the free space, install my programs from the internet computer like Home Office, Project, Visio, Map-point, Adobe Acrobat Professional and so on.  Once I setup the two computers and I give myself about two weeks I will once again be up and ready.  But as you can see I have a challenge in front of me. 

Oh and by the way the Y cable will not do what I I need will get an external USB video card to go to my new studio computer.  I am considering going DVI on the new studio but VGA is fine.  A Y cable will give me the same projection I need two separate monitors to run two programs at one time.