Gambino’s Last Plea on NaQuila’s Behalf

Gambino’s Last Plea on NaQuila’s Behalf

 

Tomorrow is the big day according to News reports that NaQuila Hardy has to face the judge on Battery Charges and I really feel awful about this.  If I have to admit to the court that I am documented as being delusional at times I will, because it is documented by the Veterans Administration.  Hell it beats pleading the 5th and may well throw out my sworn statement about the events that day

 

NaQuila I know better than a lot of people and she really had a hard time in life, but I tend to not understand her sometimes because I also suffered hardships and rather than deal with what I said happened to me in the U.S. Army overseas in Germany, I was blackballed from society and called crazy.  I am a man and could handle it, I am not sure if she can.

 

NaQuila has a testimony because she has experienced hard times in life.  We worked hard on a CD and have more work to follow if these charges can be dropped.  I hear the State Attorney might pickup the charges against my will, for whatever reasons.  This has been the pattern in her life, one situation led to another and a picture was drawn that was ugly and I really feel bad about the whole situation.

 

Personally I realize now that maybe we are not the dream couple, and sometimes love means letting go of someone.  I do not know, but putting her in jail was so un-cool and I do not know if I can live with myself if she is separated from her kids on the reckoning of me or any account because I know what they mean to her.

 

I know she cannot be convicted unless there is a vendetta against her from far reaching places.  I sense people think I am not the best person for her and perhaps she is not the best person for me, however I have unfinished business with her as I described to the court in my wavier to drop all charges.

 

Today I heard a part of powerful speech by Minister Louis Farrakhan whom I love as he in my opinion cried out for help from another black leader Reverend Jesse Jackson whom I also love.  As this is no time for division among our people and I call on them and Rev. AL Sharpton to assure for her to get a fair hearing tomorrow.  Minister Louis Farrakhan made a profound statement about being meek, in that he is patient because he loves his adversaries more than they hate themselves.

 

This made me wonder if my reasons for this relationship are on point.  Because love has to be measured here verse lust, because what I did was terrible I put her in jail for thinking out loud, and that is the bottom-line.  I have to ask myself is there a control issue with me over her.  A lot of things are crossing my mind now, perhaps a little too late, because the damage was done.  I felt I did the right thing at the time and still think good can come out of this, but will the courts do the just thing in this case?  Will the courts drop the charges on this woman who has to be terrified. 

 

I will not be present at the court tomorrow, because I was not invited to the hearing and I wish her the best tomorrow and in the future and plan to uphold my end of the agreement if the court allows me to do so.  I want the world to know I love NaQuila L. Hardy, but am I the right person for her and if not what is more important her well being or my self indulgence.  Because when it was not fun anymore I bailed on her.  It is like not wanting someone due to a character defect, which we all have, but not wanting anyone else to have her and like someone once said, “Love is not possession.” (MJJ)

 

Love

 

And now I will show you the most excellent way.

1Co 13:1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. 

1Co 13:2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. 

1Co 13:3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.

1Co 13:4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 

1Co 13:5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered; it keeps no record of wrongs. 

1Co 13:6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 

1Co 13:7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

1Co 13:8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. 

1Co 13:9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part, 

1Co 13:10 but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears. 

1Co 13:11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me. 

1Co 13:12 Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.

1Co 13:13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

 

If love is all of these things did I fail her when I said, “I love you.”

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